I cringe as I remember that conversation in panel 4.
I'm not going to go all pro/con on religion, my current feelings on the matter don't much, well, matter right now, the point is I WAS diving deeper into that whole thing and with that came certain responsibilities. Was it a bit hypocritical? Yes, it was, hence the cringing but it wasn't so much that I'd be asked to leave the chior and orchestra and all of that, it was the fact that everyone would KNOW why I was stepping back from a more visible position in the church. It was a small church I grew up in that church so it was like I had all these surrogate moms and dads watching me--that's a lot of pressure! It doesn't excuse some of my choices, but I knew what lines I could bend and which one's I couldn't cross.